Strive to enter the rest

In this rat racing society, sometimes i became one of the rat. I forgot again and again that it is really futile to become the first in the race. Indeed, i am not able to and it takes a lot of time and energy to deal with it. 

I would go over and over again to think why do I have such results which I do not deserved rather than give thanks for the blessings. 

I would go over and over again to think why am I so not able to do my assignments rather than give thanks for being able to study abroad (which used to be unreachable, unspeakable dream)

I would go over and over again to think that my future is hopeless because I do not know what I want now rather than give thanks for the present. I have friends around me who are lovely, friends in different places in this world who concerns about me, friends who I can hang out with...)

Truly, knowing and believing is different. I had known to strive/labour/be diligently enter the rest, but I never realized it when I was not in rest. Thank God that He is able to pull me back and speak to me always in a loving way. I want to learn to enter the rest.